I'm okay.

When the music runs out
And there's no more words to sing
And the wind  rushes through  your hair but fails  to seep into your skin
An agonizing scream starts  to escape your soul from within
But fails
And your mouth forms a smile  and you say
I'm  okay

Say you're okay
Every  day every day
Hoping one day you'll  believe it yourself
Never knowing  how to ask for help
Cause what would  you even say?
Nothing  is wrong but there's  a heaviness in your heart
And still there's  a part
Of you wondering  what could it be
How can the laughs not be enough  for me?
So  i paint a smile and i make a joke
Another joke another day
And suddenly you dont feel the pain
And you say hey, I'm  okay?
Until  you feel the heaviness  descend
In your heart  in yoir chest in your  soul

Again.

And you sing a song  of wordless musings
Searching  for a reason in your mind and refusing
To tell yourself how you truly feel how you're  so strung out
Cause there are no words to sing
 and the music ran out












 

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